getting words out my head

even in my absence my presence is felt..... i might not physically be there but i guarantee you'll be missing me..... my name will be in your motuh and my aura will be in your thoughts....

i feel good right now.... i am so focused and alert.... i did a little meditation and got right with myself......

everyone always wanna know who i'm boning, contrary to popular belief, i'm not getting action like that, stop wondering, i'm too focused......trust when i'm boning you will be the first to know.....

i am rebuilding the temple that is my body, after alot of self vandalism, finally healing has become a priority, knowledge of self and knowledge of the world around me.....

i am excited for the summer to come, my scars are going away..... even though i need them to realize the pain i went through was real....

call me a conspiracy theorist and yall be the first ones calling me during a conspiracy wanting my theory on the issue......i'm not trying to beat people in the head with the NWO or the Illuminatti theories, i'm trying to educate you on shit you need to know.... knowledge is power.....

i deserve so much better even if its 1 step i take towards my goals, my goals are 1 step closer to being accomplished..... look at the book it took me years to put it out and i could have been had it out for a few years already.....i wasnt focused, i was still trying to live a life of crime

i dont have time to do time...... jail is for the birds, i did too much time to keep going in and out of jail like a crazy sociopathic, criminal mastermind bitch.....change is very important to me, i'm constantly refining and redefining myself...

no struggle no progress.... i am glad i struggled because the woman i am today is not the bitch i was yesterday and the lady i will become tomorrow...

i wouldnt change one thing about my life... what defines me is who i am not what i have done.....

a few friends are having issues and i just want to speak to my people right quick:

-friend #1 girl you are smart as hell and the way you put the facts together with that gut feeling, follow it and see where it goes, sometimes you need to let go so you can take control of your situation, what dont come out in the wash comes out in the spin, you dont have to air out your dirty laundry to realize you have a stain...get rid of the stain if not just get rid of the fabric..

-friend #2 i thought you and your son would have been worked out what you needed to work out hopefully everything will be alright... remember things always have a way of working out

-friend #3 running your text messages was wrong, as a mother i would hae done the same to my son.... cant you just go back home and work things out??? remember the 5 bubbles weed, sex, cigarettes, video games, and alcohol, trust me i had the same issues with my mom growing up, thank god she didnt know how to read english because she would have really known how much i hated her as a teen, now i call her and i love her because she was the only one there when i got when i get locked up

-friend #4 i hope you finally find the right shorty to be with in your life, you deserve to be happy, as much as you do for everyone....your reward will soon come

-friend #5 you not going through anything but you always there when any of us go through shit, you know how to resolve shit and put facts together, remember we not dealing with the normal baja pantie bitches, this one is a estupida ridicula y pendeja on some psycho insecure shit.....

-friend #6 whitney houston said it best if i'm spending that kind of money i want a receipt and if nobody willing to give it to you then you dont pay shit, you have the right to have a documented account of your spending.....

-friend # 7 you better go on that show and create twitter accounts for the show stars.....i could see mad coverage of you teeting in the future*wink* then twitter me from the exotic resort after you win the show....