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i have been chilling lately.... im not wifed up though... i refuse to be wifed up.... anyway everything else is good im just bored and decided to go and make a quick blog

blogging

my daughter and i hung out yesterday all day, it was fun we got to go all over and she is just the best little girl in the world.... thats the boo boo kitty.... i love the way she says i love you momma.... she sounds mad cute i just love being with her.....


idk here are some pic

blogging

iight so i can sign into my email and do some blogging.... so let me bllaaah blaaaah blog....a little bit.... i dont know there is mad shit i want to blog about hope it makes sense to whoever is reading this..... caution this blog is kinda random

why do we complain about stalkers if we put all out business in the street??? that probably why i been doing a lot less writing, blogging or just engaging poetry..... i mean how much do people know about me??? what are other factors into what others know about me???? what i know they know about me or just what i want them to know about me and why do i want them to know???

is privacy just tailored to what individuals want people to know..... i could blog that i dream about Twinkies and someone else could blog that they dream about Twinkies and people would be like bitch don't need to be dreaming about this shit....

although some of the words may seem misspelled you can tell in the emphasis im putting on a word is how excited i feel about that word....

anyway had to rant and air out my feelings.....how believable does a blog be sometimes you write whats on your mind and no necessarily that's going on right now in you life..

look for thhis at a micro blog near you....

money excersises

i broke it down to a method that is rather quite exhausting if you say so..... think about what we do for money:

we chase paper in order to get money
stack chips for a rainy day
stumble upon money at random times
follow a dollar and see where you end up going
grind hard to get money because if you dont grind hard enough you wont get money
do strange things for change when you are pressed for money and you have no other choice
invest money in order to have something in the future
watch money grow as your investments do
lose money chasing niggas
find money when you wasnt looking for it
make it rain when you have so much money you wanna show off
pass dubs off to your waiters and service staff as tips
rake in the dough when you are surrounded by money
get money by any means necessary, shit is rough these days
take money from your employer as a salary
value money because when you dont have it, you cant survive
make money last as long as possible
inflate money during a tough economy
trick money off on shit we shouldnt be buying
stimulate the economy by buying unnecessary shit
trust money because it will get you what you want
marry money for those that are obsessed with having excessive money
hate money for those with bad experiences because of money
love money more than you love most people
liquidate assets to money when you are in a bind
balance money in order to make ends meet
reconcile money, i didnt know money was conflicted (joke)
check money to make sure its accurate
save money, because money can always help you get the shit you want sometimes it cant buy what you need.....

stages of a break up, mishaps, and mislead

1 have made the 5 stages of a breakup into my own theory.... then you will understand how easy it is to recognize whae happens during the stages.....

alienation- you throw away your friends and then get so bored with each other and begin to fight.... or you can be with your friends and be in withdrawal physically from being away from the person physically that you stop being around your friends so you can always be with the person

fines- this is the part in the break up where your mind and your body pay for what investment your heart put into the relationship.... you start saying i'm just fine to everyone and you really not.... your mind goes off and thinks negative as well as positive thoughts.. this is when you drunk dial because you just drunk and wanna curse them out or, you blunted as hell and you just wanna manifest your own paranoia and magnify whatever you are thinking about..... so you call 'em oh boy you call them up, call them down, call them motherfucker lol..... trust you call too...just to hear their voice even if they telling you go fuck yourself (insert name here)......

maintenece - thats when you want to look real good "just in case they see you they see that you are holding up better than expected...., just because you going to look good regardless, just because you look good....this phase makes or breaks you..... some people wont get dressed and i always suggest to get dressed even iof you feel like shit, look your best..... you dont want to see that person and you not looking right...."rasises hand" i was guilty of that twice and it is not a good thing....

confidence- you feel confident about yourself and just keep it moving.... go back into scenes.... get back into action and just keep it moving... go out with friends, treat yourself to something you like.... take yourself out or go out with friends and have fun, meet people....

take control- its about just letting go and taking a stronger approach into being happy, you can go to another relationship and be happy or you could just be happy by yourself... as long as you are happy it doesnt matter.... when you are happy you take control of youor emotions and your mind....

but then it could be a mishap, a mishap is when you break up for a week or two and what evre you broke up about was a mishap so you go back to the person.... below are rules of engagement....

be aware of yourself- make sure you are aware of what you do and what you say to that person because at then end of the day you dont want to be the one being stuck an amotional wreck....

be aware of them- dont let them consume you thoughts and everyday activities, watch how they move and what they do...

be aware of whats around you- that includes who's around you and where you at.... dont let anyone take you from what you really need to be doing with yoruself....

then again it could be a misleadwhere you mislead yourself to believe that everything is ok but its probably not so you are in a denial the one i would call miselead.....

1. you mislead others into thinking you are ok
2. you mislead yourself to think you are ok
3. you mislead others into believing you
5. others mislead you into believing in them
6. others mislead you into misleading yourself
7.you mislead others to believe in themselves

freestyle-

i'm not going to run around and chase you
got mad niggas that would love to replace you

bitches talk shit behind my back
bitches always going to talk shit, never mind that

this bitch cant be serious

The Quan featuring Lady Saw - Foxy Brown

i'm through, i just gotta let this bitch go..... she is no competition for me mentally, physically, spiritually, technologically, and we not even going to get into the vocabulary well i am going to copy and paste some parts of her emails to me.... and of course my responses yall know i ethered her.... (made up word)

usually, i dont entertain anyone who didnt graduate from high school, but when a bitch has a 8th grade education and she stays quoting other people like divorce court and nikki minaj because she isn't creative enough to come at me from her own mind, i gotta get her!!!! everyone who knows me knows i choke on small bones.....lol

iight here is go, my friday entertainment:

i get this email from the bitch after i sent her my show attached to the email, mind you i was dogging her on the show:

WHILE U HATEING IM GETTING HEAD LOL:
NO MAMITA IM GONNA LOVE HIM BETTER.....HE AINT GOING NO WHERE GO AHEAD ASK HIM HAHAHAHA

so i respond:
,,!,, (- _-) ,,!,,:
i hope you enjoyed the show... thanks for listening to my shit......785 listeners strong.... hello goodnight lmao

that was polite right????

so she comes out and says:
WHILE U HATEING IM GETTING HEAD LOL:
YO MY MAN 4 REAL U GOT PROBLEM'S BUT HEY GOD ONLY LOOKS AFTER CHILDREN AND FOOL'S AND U SURE DO FIT THE PROFILE.. AND FOR SOMEONE WHO TALK SO MUCH SHIT ON A NIGGA U SURE ARE RIDEING HIS DICK I AINT EVEN MAD AT U HOMIE CAUSE THAT SHIT DO FEEL GOOD HAHAHAHA U CANT TELL ME NOTHING NOW BOW IN THE PRESENCE OF GREATNESS

but yall know bitches cant fuck with my verbal so i come back with:
,,!,, (- _-) ,,!,,

why would you tell me to taste something that makes me throw up?? aint nobody riding his dick but you bitch, i choke on small bones.... what you learning about his dick i already forgot......... i moved on to bigger and better dick..... bwahahahahaha.......

battling is for beginners i get money..... not on some dritty shit like you on some intellectual shit...... oh and by the way HATING does not thave an e.... didnt you take 3rd grade spelling????? muah ha ha ha ha ha ha

now when are you running up in my house???? fuck the small talk talk to me big time.... throw that alkey oop my way.......

stop watchiong divorce court and get your lines from a credible source such as your mind..... oh wait bitch i just took your mind

hello goodnight

i thought everything was cool till..... she responded with nikki minaj (smh)

RUBY LOOK AT U THEN LOOK AT ME:
You see me in the lobby taking pics I'm flossin
After every pic gotta fix my corset
I am running this shit I am so exhausted
Batter up bitches but approach with caution
You be talking slick and honestly I can see why
You don't know me and I ain't talking bout TI
Just when they thought I was done for the winter I
Came out stunting I'm such a big spender I
Two of everything but no I'm not a Gemini
My life's a movie, take me to the cinema
Take me out to the ball game, cause you know I only fuck with ballers (yep!)
Them is my type of niggas, shot-callers
I been around the world I'm such a bad, bad girl
I got the Austin Power flow I'm groovy bitches
And no you're no match for my oozie bitches
I dumb my raps down so I don't lose these bitches
Say some sex shit like wetter than jacuzzi bitches

now i already know the bitch can not dumb down shit, so i googled her shit and came up with nikki minaj lyrics lol...... so being the bitch i am (i should have been a lawyer, politician or just a investigator lol) i responded:
,,!,, (- _-) ,,!,,
oh i thought you had writing skills, you keep plagerizing, people's shit, i could have wrote the verse for you thats what i get paid to do.... what do you get paid to do?? strip?? guzzle a nut....woooow you wack....

if you were in a cypher you would have gotten a zero

bitches know ruby is their hero

throwing them off their psycho path

as i unleash this verbal wrath

china you wack

talking about how much money you stack

who you going to impress talking about a gat

bitch you cant even swing a bat

looking like a wet rat

is edgar rodriguez aware of that

i take it all and its nothin

go shopping str8 stuntin

puff on the silver haze str8 bluntin

i only discuss bitches who really saying sunthin

i'll keep insulting you, oh never mind

your ass cant read, write, al you do is bump and grind

you eith stupid or you are fucking blind

you dont met a real bitch thats not too kind

i dont spit ridiculous punchlines

i get it popping with my hot lines

come up with better material boo

this is what i do

we dont know your bum ass

you go to nikki to match the ruby sass

you need too much catering, i dont have time

my skills are like a life of crime

your utter excuses have run out and fail

i know when you see this you going to wail

some say i'm the female kiss

i say they right because you cant touch this

get the fuck outta here

i'm too much woman for you my dear

thats what a real 16 bars look like nice try bitch.... thanks for the writing excersise.... no spell check because your dumb ass cant read anyway.....

not know i had this waiting in the inbox *dead* notice how she all of a sudden changed her name because she a dumb bitch lol
RUBY LOOK AT U THEN LOOK AT ME:

I bet you $$ CHYNA $$ won't sleep
Cause I'm a put the heat to ya beak, you bird like TWEET TWEET
And watch you smoke like a cigarette
Shoulda left the bitch a pack of Nicorette
Leave all them foul bitches wet
I give a fuck about you and ya bum crew
Mami I'm the truth they salute when I come threw
I'm not runnin bitch I bust my gun and hold on I THOUGHT YOU SAID UR COMEING

HHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAA

yo this bitch cant come up with her own shit and i go hard!!!!!!she needs nikki minaj for typical conversations and text battles with me..........so yall know i went in on her, i felt like i was battling nikki minaj and not her...... so i only put it on her with these 4 bars and the song on imeem that she obviously plagerized in a letter to me lol
,,!,, (- _-) ,,!,,

Warning - Nicki Minaj
bitch you dont sleep because you a creep

middle fingers up in the jeep

to my niggas and niggarettes

i'm smoking this bitch like cigarettes

i wish a bitch would try to wet me

the one sprayed will be she

i'll fight you myself, i dont need my crew

my crew only intimidates you

thats originality google that....... great though i found your song, you probably said you know what it would be cool to go to ruby with other peoples lyrics because, i have no creativity of my own.... does your mother know you forgot your helmet you short bus bitch????


thats when i realized she doesnt have what it takes to go up against a bitch like me..........its like mike tyson and a feather weight fighting.....bitch you done i got your mind..... you weak....
hello goodnight.....

getting words out my head

even in my absence my presence is felt..... i might not physically be there but i guarantee you'll be missing me..... my name will be in your motuh and my aura will be in your thoughts....

i feel good right now.... i am so focused and alert.... i did a little meditation and got right with myself......

everyone always wanna know who i'm boning, contrary to popular belief, i'm not getting action like that, stop wondering, i'm too focused......trust when i'm boning you will be the first to know.....

i am rebuilding the temple that is my body, after alot of self vandalism, finally healing has become a priority, knowledge of self and knowledge of the world around me.....

i am excited for the summer to come, my scars are going away..... even though i need them to realize the pain i went through was real....

call me a conspiracy theorist and yall be the first ones calling me during a conspiracy wanting my theory on the issue......i'm not trying to beat people in the head with the NWO or the Illuminatti theories, i'm trying to educate you on shit you need to know.... knowledge is power.....

i deserve so much better even if its 1 step i take towards my goals, my goals are 1 step closer to being accomplished..... look at the book it took me years to put it out and i could have been had it out for a few years already.....i wasnt focused, i was still trying to live a life of crime

i dont have time to do time...... jail is for the birds, i did too much time to keep going in and out of jail like a crazy sociopathic, criminal mastermind bitch.....change is very important to me, i'm constantly refining and redefining myself...

no struggle no progress.... i am glad i struggled because the woman i am today is not the bitch i was yesterday and the lady i will become tomorrow...

i wouldnt change one thing about my life... what defines me is who i am not what i have done.....

a few friends are having issues and i just want to speak to my people right quick:

-friend #1 girl you are smart as hell and the way you put the facts together with that gut feeling, follow it and see where it goes, sometimes you need to let go so you can take control of your situation, what dont come out in the wash comes out in the spin, you dont have to air out your dirty laundry to realize you have a stain...get rid of the stain if not just get rid of the fabric..

-friend #2 i thought you and your son would have been worked out what you needed to work out hopefully everything will be alright... remember things always have a way of working out

-friend #3 running your text messages was wrong, as a mother i would hae done the same to my son.... cant you just go back home and work things out??? remember the 5 bubbles weed, sex, cigarettes, video games, and alcohol, trust me i had the same issues with my mom growing up, thank god she didnt know how to read english because she would have really known how much i hated her as a teen, now i call her and i love her because she was the only one there when i got when i get locked up

-friend #4 i hope you finally find the right shorty to be with in your life, you deserve to be happy, as much as you do for everyone....your reward will soon come

-friend #5 you not going through anything but you always there when any of us go through shit, you know how to resolve shit and put facts together, remember we not dealing with the normal baja pantie bitches, this one is a estupida ridicula y pendeja on some psycho insecure shit.....

-friend #6 whitney houston said it best if i'm spending that kind of money i want a receipt and if nobody willing to give it to you then you dont pay shit, you have the right to have a documented account of your spending.....

-friend # 7 you better go on that show and create twitter accounts for the show stars.....i could see mad coverage of you teeting in the future*wink* then twitter me from the exotic resort after you win the show....

updated drama post

Dem Dont Like Mi - Foxy Brown

i am a product of the streets of new york....you cant tell me something and i wont investigate it, now if something isnt written down it never happened..... if you dont have a receipt for your purchase, you could have boosted that shit..... my mind is too intuative for that shit....

i was hit with the trojan horse today... but remember greece won the trojan war.....i thank god i am blessed today, my book coming out, i'm doing amazing writing projects and i get recognized for my outstanding contribution to articles or shit i be writing.....my radio show is where i want it to be....

so today i woke up early ready to tackle my day, on a positive note because i'm getting back into my chi ( i can sit on my bed for 3-4 hours at a time just meditating to music) waiting for the music store to open to cop cnn's channel 10 which by the way is a great cd better than expected.....i digress though...

since i put myself on self imposed exile i been fasting, i been drinking less and really getting into spiritual and mental cleansings.....trying to live through metaphysics.... but just because i'm a vegan it doesnt mean the beast isnt lurking..... i get in my mantra, i got bad sinuses so i cant smell anyone right now, i am too focused on gettting this paper and taking over the world plus i was doing preliminary sketches to a challenge given to me..... like 4 real i dont have time for the drama....

i was chopping it up and just talking to my friend when i get rudely interupted by chyna.... someone spit your name..... mind you my phone was off while i was on exile just to avoid her....how beat is she to call me less than 24 hours after i put my phone on.....like 4 real who does stupid shit like that, disrupting people when they trying to do them......

so i'm thinking motherfuckers told her i was with some niggas on deck waiting to blast her man but it wasnt that.....if i gotta tell her what time it is, i'm not going to tell her she should know better with our history.....i dont like her, she is not smarter than me and i'm always on high alert when i speak to her.....

when i conversated with her she told me some girl that is fly with me spit my name, so i told her forward me the message, i got the message and couldnt believe the girl said that about me, knowing me and of me, so i called my bestie like check this out i got a text but funny thing is that it wasnt fwded to me, it was just a text.... issue was resolved asap....

i even was in a demented side of a cruel joke which i think was cool....i'm into jokes and just repeating them to make me get some rec out this shit....i was just telling my friend how i calmed down and how my alertness and wellness is better...i was the sane one for a minute.....its just that drama that gets to me all the time....

so she got the girl and we spoke about it and we got on the same book on the same page.... my first instinct is to cut the bitch, i'm to the point where putting hands on a bitch doesnt work anymore, i wanna cut you.....when i say classified cutter i mean i am classified to cut someone quick and get away with it because i'm 7:45 way out my mind and medication dont even work for me, .. obviously she wasnt trying to come to the projects she must've thought she was going to get me to fight for her...fuck around get fucked up, cut up, and sit down and shut up....bitch i'm known for slashing and stashing.....i make examples out of bitches.....

as far as the nigga is concerned, he is a dead issue, my niggas wanna get him touched on the strength that he str8 shitted on me.... and right now i dont give a fuck if niggas put him out of his misery... i make examples out of bitches, he should know, i will cut a bithc and be on the next thing smoking outta jersey... states, i could survive anyplace i go......i've done it....

now nigga you feel disrespected because you was called a fiend, everyone going to know you for a fiend, you was shooting up for years, thats the impression people have of you, no matter how much money you make and no matter what car you drive, niggas and bitches will always see you as a fiend... you dont think motherfuckers see me like that???

they dont tell me and the ones that do are going based on something i did for a small percentage of my life, they dont say look at the pace university graduate or look at the poet/ writer/rapper..... motherfuckers will see me as a heroinwhore how is someone disrespecting you by teliing you what s true and factual its like someone wanting to you to apoligize for asking a question.....like maya angelou says, things in your life you cannot change just dont let things in your life change you....i am still the same girl many of you met playing double dutch, the smae bitch yall went to school with, the same bitch that you met when you met me, the only difference is that its about this chick doing her and making her mark in the world......

nigga you showed me who you was and now i believe you... i dont try i do and i did now i'm done..... its about self knowledge and elevation of self.... he has alot of redemption to do before he could even get me to speak to him again..... i'm good my life is moving along and i'm on the way to building an empire.....going at my full potential and mastering my craft.....bitches is beat as hell and want to drag me into their drama......

APB alert: who is erica from 5th street in union city???? she supposedly spit my name too.... funny thing is i dont know her and she doesnt know me.... i dont fuck with union city, weehawken, or west new york..... i'm strictly north bergen, jersey city, elizabeth, LES and east new york.....

if someone is spitting my name then someone lying to them or they lying..... i get mad love in the hood....fuck it i had fun and i went to chill in bayonne.....

leave me alone already

Superman part 3 (feat. charli baltimore) - Foxy Brown

if someone spits my name either they lying or someone lying to them... i am the street i get mad love from people, shit i am the street.... bitch has heard of my hair brain schemes and superhero stunts, the bitch knows i put it on her.... why keep stalking me???

is that nigga still saying my name???? she admitted to him saying my name all the time.....

when she said some one spit my name then i came back like what did they say i had my niggas on deck and your man got hurt??? i'm sorry to hear that.... she was like no no not that lmao...

she need to know she shouldnt fuck with people that know where her family lives because innocent people get hrt like that..... she thought I, ME, RUBY, CLARA whatever you want to call me wasnt going to investigate an assassination of character.... she dont even know i will str8 jack that hoe on some for real shit..... tax her ass again.....

dont go away mad just go away

Weak - SWV

we all got that ex that wont go away, that ex's current that stalks you in order to catch her "man" with you or the shit that kills me the most the bitches that think they know you because of what they heard but they only know the legend not the person......

all they see is the struggle they dont see the progress.....then you got those thats not there for the struggle and in the back of your mind you wonder would they have been there in my struggle....would they have taken me out the streets for one night when i was homeless or would they have left me homeless to protect their valueables because besides its ruby and stick up kids is out to tax was my motto at one point...

so imagine a stick up kid strung out on drugs motherfuckers would have the fear of you leaving them tied up with all their jewels and their house just empty because you known for burglaries.... they forget you still that girl that went to school with them or that same little girl who used to rock the ropes in double dutch....

i'm probably one of the few people left that still looks at a person for face value and put everyone on the honor system till they get themselves played out or play themselves out....you cant play someone who has made a manifestation of self knowledge.....so lies are automatically detected...

i'm glad that i always thought outside the box and it has given me the skills to do what i have to do in order to be where i want to be or do what i want to do.... keep evolving in my quest for a deeper knowledge and sense of self.... where no one owns me but me....

life is hard but we have to be harder... rolling the dice is mad easy lets see how you roll with the punches.....

well there i went off topic again just know for all the haters dont go away mad just go away!!!!

right now i'm waiting for the record store to open on bergenline and cop that cnn channel 10....

mi corazon por vida
(my heart for life)
ruby red dbl r

early morning mental jog

it's 5 am and i woke up early to tackle the day i have a lot to do today.... my number 1 priority is matching all my bags to my shoes and spring cleaning some shit in the house.... people shouldnt have 1/2 the impulsive shopping items i have.....

right now i'm chilling listening to the baja pantie playlist and transfering my blogs from myspace... i dont want to have that ghetto mentality anymore i'm on some elevation of self and knowledge....

i like to daily drop a gem, a jewel, and a drink.... build upon whatever knowledge is bestowed upon me, and give back to the person that taught me certain knowledge that i have grasped whatever they wanted to convay to me.....

i truely put away childish shit, its like i dont have that ghetto mentality but i am inner city savy there's a big difference....i was called a dinasaur in this game, lmao...... i'm glad i could still be a diinasaur and not a darwin version lol i still walk upright..... especially after the shit i walked throug in life....

even though at times i felt like i was walking on water, i have felt the uncomfortable heat of walking and dancing on fire.... today a close friend turned 38 years old we lucky to be alive thinking about all the shit we used to do in LES at 13 years old on the hours of twilight zone..(4-6 am) in the 80's i done seen a turn of the century.....

my cousin hit me up on myspace..... i love that kid he is the youngest out the oldest, he was that little nigga back in the day that would ride out with the big kids..... i remember taking him to play inthe park and smoking mad weed....lol if my uncle knew he would kill us..... just like my brother steve is the oldest of the youngest.....he was going to have us big kids tell him what to do.... he changed the game in my family......

i had an incredible smoking session with KELLS i would love to talk to him again, he is mad young and very intelligent... the best part is that he isnt afraid to share his knowledge.... i love people like that.... sharing what you know shows intelligence, it shows that you are willing to teach people.... i see him doing big things.....

the cell phone is back on and only a few people get that.... i dont want a barrage of stalkers calling me.... because thats why i had it off int he first place...shit dont get me to talking.....

i see myself with major creative productivity in the near future heche mis cartas and they look positive.... i just gotta keep grinding......book coming out next month i'm good..... just the title alone is going to appease to a mass audience......

i'm in a good spot right now.....i'm not going to let barney eat my fruity pebbles!!! i got this on lock....its about refining and redefining myself besides granny gangster has been over done.....

its about growing up today and matering myself, my destiny and when the road gets bumpy drive with the brakes on.....

i dont need a man and trust there are mad dick donors out there that will get the job done in a discreat manner.... what??? if men do it tis ok???? i got needs too.....shit shower me with your dick lol.... i digress....

the killer Bs

Lyrical Swords - Rass Kass & GZA
blind- never be blind to any situation even if you act non chalant about it you awareness should always be on

bribery and blackmail- this is why i'm always very open about myself because no one could blackmail me,l me i'm not ashamed of anything i do in my life to the point i will bribe someone to keep my secrets ha ha

bloodties- according to bloodties are another form of black mail, well not for me i dont fuck with my fasmily like that....

brainwashing- a person that no one owns like myself cant fall into brainwashing because my mind is too strong for that shit

bullies-people who mentally or physically try to make you do something because they will try to mess with your head to think they are stronger have you scared to death... never that on my part, i got some heat for a bully's ass

bury- this is where hasan's rules (11th century middle east hasan ibn sabbah) he had a cult that was so feared they were called the assasins (hashishin) come into play all problems could solved through education or assassination.... thats always my strategy, try to educate or assassinate whoever try to get in my way......

"in warfare the more you can disguise your intent and angle of attack, the better your chances of first befuddling, battering down, and then burying your enemy"- Lung, Cao Dai Kung-fu


"stick up kids is out to tax"- nice and smooth (i digress with my quotes, reminds me of back in the day...

dear boo boo kitty

Heaven Sent - Keyshia Cole

dear boo boo kitty,

i am so proud of what you have achieved....runner up but you will always be number 1 to me..... i always tell you you are better than what i prayed for when i was pregnant with you.....and you keep proving me right every time you accomplish something...

having me as a mom is so hard, your mommy has promised you i wont go back to jail and in and out of jail i've been.... this time around i have stayed home just to call you and hear you say guess what??? or just to hear your voice and know that you love me no matter what i am where i am and what i do.....through the drugs, the thugs, the bids, the your mother aint shit, you always loved me......i always loved you....

since you were a baby mommy was there building knowledge so you could be this intelligent young woman that came from me......

i know i wasnt there for 6 years yet i always looked for you and i always made sure i had time to go stalk you and your brother..... now we dont have to go through extreme measures, i'm just a phone call away, you are just 2 towns away......

like i told you when we reunited i'm not a stranger that gave birth to you boo boo kitty, i'm your mom and we have the rest of our lives to be together.....

love always
your mother

true

True - Queen Pen

i love words and making them come together

in beautifully composed sentences

paragraphs that keep people at awe of my mastery

lines that bless the pages like little angels in the night



words that heal your tattered souls

words that mend the most hurtful scar

a constant reminder of my flaws in ever bar,

because behind every movement you will find a star

shining like a prism throughout the night

making your morning when you wake up

inspiring you to do right, because the pot of gold is finally in sight

feeling clear like an evening light

with you shining just as bright......



i try to shed light

bring forth light

enlighten the senses to reach beyond their span

of thinking

writing some hot shit and not even blinking

you could tell my demeanor just by the way i'm inking,

will give you the reader to get something

out of whatever i write

if i write and the reader understands me

then, as a writer i have done my job

but as a writer if a reader identifies with my metaphoric meanings

it is a big reward for myself..

because its not all crazy shit i talk about,

its shit that happens everyday i just verse it better..

may it be a thesis or a love letter



my political poems keep you wanting to learn more

my marijuana poems make you wanna smoke more

my beef writes will come at you when you cant take it anymore

my heart broken poems will cry of my nevermore



my mind is a tangled web of knowledge

spewing out thought and ideas at the speed of light

sometimes at the speed of sound....

a sane concept from an insane person

that develops a conspiracy theory for the ills of this society.....



just ranting and raving,

consolidation of media sharing,

sometimes too fucking overbearing

bet i walk into a room and everyone is staring

whether drunk or sober my view is not impairing

with emotion....call me an international heartless bitch,

i been one since 1994 (google that, take that, check that)..



*sips more henny, puffs blunt*



this year marks 20 years i give flowers to the dead,

one over bullshit, 2 that i loved and 4 shot dead.....

etched permanently in my head, the last day the last word they said...

with knowledge a hungry man gets fed.....

baja pantie day definition and playlist

i've heard the expression before just never really delved into the subject matter because of the word construction i thought it was a metaphoric phrase...

baja (mean lower) pantee (female underwear) i guess baja tangas (lower thongs) could be a variation......so i thought a baja pantee was a nigga with that swagga and that charm to melt the panties off you......

to my dismay, baja pantee is a girl that gives it up all the time..... not that i'm a fan of the expression unless a nigga look real good......

good grief wtf is happening to the world this day..... so i decided to make today baja pantee day... and like in all latin culture its ok when a guy does it but its slutty when a woman does it.........

i'm done..... as long as que se bajen los tienes limpio
at least the panties will be clean....... i'm a fan of clean underwear.....lol


this is the baja pantie playlist enjoy

Baja Pantie Music

get some baja pantie music.......a cute baja pantie and just chill...... hit me up boo.... you already know.....

new blogs coming soon

i still keep forgetting about this site and blogging on it i still blog on myspace (stfu) my stalkers might not be smart enough to come over here and stalk me.... well some of my main stalkers are on here i think i made the account for them.....

i put myself in self imposed exile because i'm not beat for none of these bitches....

listen to this song:

Day N Nite [Main] - Kid Cudi